4th dance thingie with heats + My Imagination

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Did my first travel dance competition! In the past, I’ve done informal team matches and Club Night at a real competition. This was my first time competing in the Rhythm category, and I did some Club Night heats too.

I know I have changed states when I do things, and then after the fact, notice that I am surprised that I felt drawn to doing something DIFFERENT than I would’ve done in the past.

I’m surprised that I have zero interest in sharing my dance videos, or talking about them! You’d think that after my first “real” competition that I wouldn’t want to shut up about dance… but the opposite is true. I mean, I still enjoyed the experience and I’m grateful for all the support I received. And. As evidenced by my latest Instagram posts (going to list the titles and links here because this is the new thing I am nerding out on!), I have been cultivating a friggin amazing, enjoyable, fruitful, intimate relationship with My Imagination and I am finally putting first things FIRST.

So, this blog is going to be different. I’ll talk about the dance experience as a context in which I was playing with my Consciousness and my Imagination!

Life Lesson #1 – Just say what I want. The night I arrived, a group of us walked around the Strip to find dinner. We could’ve turned left or right after exiting our hotel. No one really cared where we went. I just said I wanted to see the Bellagio. Everyone was amenable and there was no resistance. I’ll explain more as this blog continues – I firmly believe that being our most alive selves IS what best serves the world. I don’t need to “try” to “serve” people. I need to fully own and be resident in myself. Quite literally, everything else falls into place.

Life Lesson #2 – My sense of smell is probably my strongest sense. Vegas smells bad. All of the indoor smoke and the dry desert air can be a nauseating combination. Walking toward the botanical garden in the Bellagio, I could smell it before I could see it. From memory, I know where it is located and I knew we were close. But I could SMELL it. It was such a respite and treat from all the cigarette smoke. I’m grateful for this experience because it reminded me how much I value scents. When I am imagining already having my desire and already being who I want to be, I can use this sense! Imagine how fragrant and SWEET it smells to be in Hawaii. Imagine that MAN SCENT of hubby. Imagine the innocent vitality of my grandkiddos’ newborn feet. My issue with the “embodiment” and “presence” worlds is that they root you in THE “WRONG” PRESENT. I don’t need my senses working overdrive in the current 3D world – which is actually the PAST, by the time I “sense” it with my senses and the interpretation hits my brain/psyche. All states already exist. Creation is finished. The PROPER use of my senses is to fully immerse myself in visualizing/FEELING my desire ALREADY UNLEASHED, already fulfilled, already HERE.

Life Lesson #3 – Sure, embrace the opportunity in front of you. And. At the end of the day, trust my gut. This was my first real competition and I didn’t know what to expect. I incorrectly assumed that someone would educate me. I can see how that was my fault, and I now know to walk into new things asking the appropriate parties what their expectations of me are. An instructor graciously let me try on one of her dresses. It’s beautiful, and, it didn’t really feel like ME. I had an Amazon dress that I got approved and I wasn’t planning on wearing the instructor’s dress. They packed it for me, and after some conversation, I ended up wearing it. It’s a gorgeous dress and… it’s just not me. I still danced my heart out, I still had a blast, I learned something new about competition dresses, I gained even more respect for the sport. When I finally got to change into my dress for the evening portion, I felt an exhale and relief. Much more me. Sure, I could “change states” into a person who enjoys fancy dresses. But if I’m being honest – I don’t want to! And I don’t have to :)) And that’s okay. There is nothing wrong with the state of “fancy” dresses and there is nothing wrong with the state of more simple dresses. Like the hula hoops video, they’re just different states. Which one do I prefer? Go live in it, already, here and now!

Life Lesson #4 – Life truly does hug me when I am LIVING. I mean, life hugs me even when I’m NOT living boldly. But when I AM living as I want to live?! Whew, Lawdy, the winks and signs and hugs and confirmations I receive! “Con te Partiro” by Andrea Bocelli is arguably the best song at the Bellagio fountains. Of COURSE it was the first song I watched with a friend after dinner. I just friggin love this song and the design of the water, so here ya go!

Life Lesson #5 – It almost feels like the state I’m exiting is also kicking me out as I exit it hahaha. I’m still new at this Neville Goddard stuff, but even this early on in my playing with this, I have observed several times that the state I’m CHOOSING to no longer occupy, also does NOT want me anymore! Kind of the opposite but not of the above life lesson. The new lover wants me and hugs me tight; the ex-boyfriend and I are kicking each other to the curb simultaneously. With zero effort, things have just been… clearing?!… themselves out of my life. Things, relationships, experiences, mindsets, thoughts, feelings. They’re just… gone? I was laughing as I listened to the above Bellagio song. Yup, lots of goodbyes lately! And they’re not even… sad? They’re just… natural? Like I quoted in one of my Instagram reels, I so easily find myself in new states to the point that I don’t even REALIZE I’m in a new state, because it’s just so natural to me! This is the coolest thing. It’s even COOLER than dance. Hahaha, which, if you talked to me 1 week or 1 day ago, I would’ve thought that nothing is cooler than dance. Welp, new state!

Life Lesson #6 – Putting things in their rightful place feels SO. FREAKING. GOOD. If you’ve been following along my journey, you know that dance has been massive for me lately. And I’ve often wondered what place it has in my life. I don’t care to pursue becoming a professional. Socials are fun… but the caliber of leads obviously doesn’t match my private lessons. Private lessons are fun… but to what end? I’ve now seen a real competition. The pomp and circumstance just is not me. I dug up my old makeup, and I laughed when I realized the eye shadow primer and mascara are >1 year old. Everything else is from my best friend’s wedding in 2014. This makeup is over a decade old!!! I wear makeup maybe once a year. I don’t care to buy new products, and the old ones are just fine. I know that makeup doesn’t really have a place in my life. I have no interest in giving shellaced hair or fake tans a place in my life, either. (Though, watching my dance videos, I totally now understand why fake tans are necessary hahaha.) I can feel when I am going 0 to 100 and falling in utter love with something. As quickly as that happens, I also know that I can go 100 to 0 in an instant. I always wonder when it’s going to hit me. I can feel that this moment is upon me with dance. Not that I am going to stop dancing… but that I am going to drastically change my relationship with it. How? I don’t know. And not my job! Just hold and feel what I WANT, what my desired state is, what my ideal relationship to dance is – and God, my Subconscious, will figure out and reveal the “how.” I can also feel my Imagination and putting my relationship with my Consciousness FIRST, making it BAE, is going to be with me for the rest of my life. Because this IS living. It isn’t journaling or blogging or dancing or a career or studying new modalities of personal development or even a relationship with a spouse/children/parents/family/anyone else. When people say to put God first, I get it now. God before EVERYTHING. Consciousness before everything. Because, like in the hula hoops video – aaaaanything else is but a futile attempt at rearranging surfaces.

Life Lesson #7 – Going first is, in itself, so rewarding; and, people’s beautiful responses to taking initiative is a fun cherry on top. Had many beautiful, clarifying, healing conversations over the weekend. I had things I wanted to say and talk about, and, without knowing how the other person was going to respond, I just said what I wanted to say. It may not always work out this way, but every single time, the conversation that unfolded was awesome and helpful for both parties. This seems to be true in many areas of life. I go first, I set the tone, I take the leap, I just take the next step on the unfolding path – and things work! Things unfold! Things… just… are! Keep doing what III want to do and life keeps meeting me! I mean. I got into dance because I wanted to be a better “follow.” Is THIS not the most beautiful dance, and the one that REALLY counts?! The dance with my own Consciousness. Goodness gracious. The best dance partner. I can’t even say “leader” because we are one. I’m not “following.” There isn’t someone offering a hand and someone accepting that hand. Somehow, desires are in my heart, and then I claim them as if they were already mine, and then things happen. I’m somehow both the “leader” and the “follow.” It feels more like a bioluminescent upward spiral, dancing and swirling around in the cosmos. I’ll have to try to paint this someday. Consciousness is the coolest thing!!!

This Neville Goddard quote makes my head hurt in the best way. I’m going to leave you with this. Let it sink in. Contemplate it. Not too hard though. Let it shatter your mind. Life is fucking amazing and I am so happy to be in the real HERE where things ALREADY ARE.

“The conceiver and his conception are one, therefore that which you conceive yourself to be can never be so far as even to be near, for nearness implies separation.” -Neville Goddard

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